I’m better, but still very torn up. Far more than my brother, he was a kindred spirit. A truly bright and extraordinary man that lived fearlessly and completely in the moment - most often with relish. Always incredibly generous with his wisdom and knowledge. Everything he did and said had an intention, even when talking about (seemingly) nothing. The pain from this loss is among the deepest I’ve ever known... knowing that I won’t be able to live and breathe in the moment alongside him in this life again. The times I did filled me with an indescribable brand of peace and joy. It feels like I lost a part of myself. Nonetheless, he wouldn’t want the pain and feelings of emptiness to distract me from my purpose. As it’s important to take the time to heal, it’d be useful constructively use the energy attached. Gotta keep it pushin’ as life does the same, ya know? That was his manifesto, after all.
I’m extremely grateful to have had someone like him for a brother. Forever grateful that he brought me into the RH Factor family, which gifted us the opportunity to experience different parts of the world and do what we love together. In that journey, I connected, reconnected and broke bread with some of the most beautiful souls I’ve ever met, including some of my heroes.
Thank you for being here. For sharing your light and the profoundly beautiful music that resided within. For being one of the best brothers one could ask for. Love you forever. Rest In Heaven, Tony. I miss you. Say hi to pops for me. - B